had a great birthday celebration last night. it's gd to see everyone having fun toge. it's really seldom our minds can be that carefree. i think SC has become a part of my life already :)

anyway, vomitted twice in the clubroom. first time feeling so sick and weak. come to think of it, must be those late nights that caused it =/ but well, thank god i'm feeling better now. i want my healthy body back soon!

aft yest bad experience, life seems to be really fragile. it makes me want to treasure the people ard me and whatever i have now even more. to be honest, i'm contented with my life. all i can say, a busy yet happy person. maybe a "no life" person but it's far more better than having nothing to do. haha

but still i do need to constantly remind myself that family, friends and health come before many things. i'm trying my best even though i might seems to be neglecting them sometimes. i think they'll understand or at least i hope they can :)

i always dream of recruiting some designers to help me with the diff projs. then my job would be to art direct. haha but until that day happens, i better start work right away. time is running out!

真的累了..

只想有多一些时间。留给家人，朋友，他和自己的时间。那就够了。 :)

it's just the right time to listen to Corrinne May's album.

i have been back to the routine of working late these few weeks, explaining to why i dont write as frequently already and honestly said, i'm abit sick of working so late, missing sleep and all. i believe my hard work would pay off, seen and appreciated. (no high hopes but well, stay positive at all times!)

i think i could have done better for many things. i wan to live up to my expectations and others. be it designing, photography skills, character and leadership. i wan to get there, able to stand up there and be proud of.

i realised photos being shortlisted dun mean anything. browsing thr events photos and all, i'm not good, or even really bad esp when taking humans. how? i dun even know how to ans those questions popping up, up there.

however, i appreciate those comments. at least everynow and then i know where and how shl i go about improving and producing "better" work. am in the midst of clearing work. trying hard to get out of e box and try something new. i need ideas and meet some deadlines next wk! create and breathe it in :)

CH: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2 more days.

i wonder why am i so high today
seems to be laughing alot
maybe it's the stress from p& ad photography that's making me insane
or maybe the sinful choc and sweet from mr. sam

have overcome so many obstacles until today, dun want to give up
but things are not on my side
i want to do it, yet i can't due to the many protest
save me from everything, 1 day, 3 shots!

let it happens. bless that it happens. really!
i'm not asking for much
jsut want to get over and done with this and move on with what i need to do
i've been delaying everything. way too much

i need to put in my 110% in the upcoming projs
shl improve frm my usual standards
am still far from there though
*hint*

anyway, to the 2 guys who might happen to read this:
i'm okay, stress but still okay. HAHA thanks for cheering me up and being there for me
THANK YOU! appreciate those little actions very much.
what can i do without your?

happy tuesday. may tml be another happy and smooth sailing day!
- more than just a friend

Breather.

3rd week of the block. the chiong-ing period!

getting a little worried, went changi and pasir ris beach yet still couldn't find what i need for shooting =/
but am glad that he approved and quite like my concept
pcomd, half-way there but there lots to compile, oversee the whole collaterals, fine-tune and presentation.
things are more or less on track but still can't help but to worry about my shooting next wk.

life has been the same. the topics on that particular person have indeed add an element of fun and laughter in my life recently.

dun know how it started but well, work first. holiday shall be the time to catch up with family, friends, cca, what-ever project designs, and clear/sort whatever that's on my hands and mind now. no idea, why is this lady smiling away. HAHA

until then,
take care :)

what's ahead of this lady?

time's running out.
i wonder what can i show ferdin during tml meeting
i wonder what designs to show little, medium, big boss on wed
i wonder if cy will aprrove and concept
i wonder if meetings will go well
i wonder if i can get everything done b4 deadlines!

i'm clearing my truckloads of work....
but until yest night, i'm only done with SC blog and some pathetic designs
i know i need to go FULL SPEED! SAM, SUPER FULL SPEED!
taking up so many commitments = knowing that i need to put in the same amount of commitments and time in whatever i do

to think that i have the passion, the commitments and the goal to give it a best shot but do i have the time?
i'm not giving up until the last moment, i wan to perserve and excel!
until today, i still live up to me motto " You're a failure if you give up"

only solution is to work and forgo about eating or sleeping =/ if only i can but being a human my brain need some rest too! haha at least there's something that draws a smile on my face :)

some gd news to share(PLS VOTE FOR THIS ARTIST):
http://noisesingapore.com/showcase2006.php?
nMainCat=47&page=28&nSearchBy=2&nSearch=

draw a wider smile on her face!

zhuojie or sam?

Z- Always ready.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
U- You really like to chill.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
J- Everyone loves you.
I- You have a fine ass
E- Damn good kisser.

S- Easy to fall in love with.
A- You like to curse alot.
M- one to have fun.
A- You like to curse alot.
N- You are dead sexy.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
H- You have a very good personality.
A- You like to curse alot.

i wonder if i'm more like zhuojie or sam. HAHA
Anyway, why don't you have fun trying this yourself?

A- You like to curse alot.
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- you live to have fun.
M- one to have fun.
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- one of the best damn bf/gf ne one could ask for.
Z- Always ready.

Hot? So what?

I look for those with more proper character!
Hmm, I sense jealousy in the air...

if only i knew what's on your mind
if only..

the journey that lies ahead

back from camp
really tired, really sleep, really sway

stayed in studio to shoot till ten plus then headed back to camp
had a distinctive cut on my nose and something cut into my eyes
can't imagine what will happen next 3 wk :X

on the whole, the camp was fun
first experience of planning, organising and photographing
the love for it erase all the stress from sch work

i got a really long list of THINGS TO DO. need me to emphasize? haha
but i'm always trying to calm down and let nature take its course
i don't want to have my first breakdown

sam mentioned in the debrief, that same few things that make me smile yet frown
i know he's super worried about me and always want to lighten my work
so glad that andrew's always there. really a nice brother!
extra care. extra concern. extra help. free ride home. free pancake(might be e influence fron sam).

the sam's love for pancake :)
i thank god for everything
pls let me survive another 3 wks
get going!